This Time Last Year

This Time Last Year

This time last year I was afraid. I was afraid of all…


This time last year I was afraid. I was afraid of all the things I still didn’t know, of the people that might harm me and of the things I would lose when I decided to study at a university so far away from home.

This time last year I was juggling between new friends and not-so-new friends; gathering people who, just like me, were alone in a new environment. Testing the waters and trying to learn who would leave after the party or who would stay to clean up the mess.

This time last year I was a fool; thinking I could survive in a competitive school with just the limited knowledge I had.

I pretended that the little time I used for studying was enough to pass my exams and to succeed in my chosen course.

This time last year I was thrilled. Thrilled to try the different things in life I could do and I could learn. The places I could go to and the money I could spend on useless things that would never last, not even taking into consideration the sacrifice that my parents were doing to provide all those luxuries and the work they had to endure.

Practice Photo-shooting 

Practice Photo-shooting 

What’s up? I always thought that It would be difficult for me…

What’s up?

I always thought that It would be difficult for me to ever pose and model in front of a photographer. And by photographer, I mean someone with a real camera, someone who knows how to really take the shot. Not like when your mom or dad takes a snap of you eating an ice cream or that one photo where you stood beside McDonald’s mascot. It was impossible, I told myself — not very confident with how I look and how much effort I needed in order to actually look good. This was how I acted whenever someone would even suggest going on a photo shoot. Gee, so much insecurity huh?